I love my family, I love having them come home. I have always wanted children and then grandchildren so it was not hard for me to imagine myself as a grandma.
Of the numerous times I thought of grandchildren, many times it was visualizing them in my home. "Let's go to Nana's, I want to see Nana, Nana and I are going to spend the day together, Nana and I are baking cookies, can I spend the night at Nana's?" The list goes on. My dream was realized last week when through the door for the first time ever, I had a grandchild in my home!
Many hours were spent cuddling, rocking, singing, camera clicking.
What I could not imagine though was how beautiful it would be watching my daughter be a mom. I know it happens, but watching my beautiful, confident, daughter instinctively know how to be a good mom was heart warming. She is a mama bear with her cub. She glows when she looks at her little girl, she selflessly gives up time with her so that she can be loved by us. Her priorities have changed and anything that her cub needs she will provide. I enjoyed every moment of her enjoying every moment with her baby.
More than once My little girl, now a mommy was seriously ill. Blessed are we that she has been given the awesome gift of motherhood. A badge of Honor I proudly share with her.
I felt full when she was here. I felt contentment. I felt like this was another extension of our family that keeps us going. I felt like I was sharing with her what it was like for me when she was a baby. I am so Blessed.
Seeing my daughter be a mommy is amazing. I pray someday I will have the same privilege in seeing my son be a dad. I thought about this after Ashley and Audrey left and I thought " I want Mike to have this" I smiled because Every time Mike experiences something amazing he wants everyone he loves to experience it as well. Have you ever done something fun, or gone someplace really cool and you just wanted others to be with you or to "feel what you feel" Mike does this and shares EVERY detail so that we feel we are there. That is what I want for him to realize with parenting- it is an amazing trip! Ask your sister she's been there!
I realized that my life has turned out to be right where I want it to be. I certainly have not traveled on an unbroken road to get here. I have stumbled over boulders, fallen in crevices that swallowed me up, I have hidden behind mountains large enough to never be found. I thank my Lord though for Grace and Mercy and for fields of flowers and paths lined with cotton to ease the pain when I fell. I Thank him for showing me that HE finds me Worthy.
