So there is this girl, she kind of fills my heart up ALOT- she calls me mom!
My precious daughter is carrying her second child and as the time is drawing a bit nearer she is beginning to feel emotions that any mom having child #2 has felt.
It is undeniably very special to have your first child. It is all a new experience. You romanticize the birthing process, you experience a first with your partner that can never be another first. You instantly fall in love and your world is now held in these tiny hands. The bond is one you will never share with another. How can you? Another child can never be your first.
Another child however can be just as awesome. You have to make the experience a new one. Yes the labor is likely going to be the same, yes you know what to expect. The excitement though is that there is a first happening here. It is the first time you will meet your second child. Your heart doesn't grow bigger for the to share, you grow another heart so they each have their very own.
My precious baby girl, I know the emotions of not having your world revolve around just your first child are tugging at your heart. I can promise you this, the special bond you have with her will not be lost. The love you have for Audrey is what will make it so easy for you to love pumpkin.
Yes it is true, Audrey has done something for you no other child will, she is who made you a mom. She taught you how to love someone immensely even on a bad day. She is the first one to ever call you mommy. She is the reason you want another child.
I wish I could promise you that things will not change. This is one of those times that I can't do that. Savor the time you have as "just Audrey's mama" and she will be secure in having to share you.
Snuggle a little longer. Let her hear her sisters hear beat. Let her go to the store and buy her a present. Give her 2 choices and let her pick out her coming home outfit. Frame pictures of her coming home day and make a big deal over it and let her show it to her sister. Sit in the new nursery while you read a good night story , let her pick out a book of hers to give to her sister.
Teach her to love being a big sister and when they smile at each other for the first time your mama heart will melt.
You will be amazing as a mama of two. You will not have the same relationship with both of your girls but that is not born of loving them different it is because they are two complete different individuals. What you will grow to know is that you don't love them the same, you can't they are not the same person. You will however love them each equally.
You know it isn't a bad thing what our are feeling-it is an awesome thing because it translates into how much you love being Audrey's mommy.
You are giving Audrey a great gift and you are creating a first for her. You are making her a sister. You are giving her a friend for life. We don't say goodbye to firsts we hold onto them for life.
These two little loves of yours will never doubt the heart you have for them. I know because I know you.
I love you immensely my baby girl- My second born!
