Does she know?

Anyone who has been following my blog knows at least two things about me,

1. I am going to be a first time grandma.
2. I am excited about being that first time grandma.

The time is drawing close ( just a few weeks) and I have been reflective ( surprised aren't you).  I have been thinking about my daughter and son-in laws life and how much their lives are going to change.  I know that is cliche, any new parent to be's have, I am certain heard several times throughout their pregnancy.  I am not thinking about all the big obvious things, but the small everyday happenings in the life of a parent with a baby/toddler.

I am thinking about how the child's wardrobe will be so much nicer than my daughters (it is a fact) not that my daughter does not have lovely clothes (or that it matters) but how suddenly we have more fun dressing a little one to the max and we wear sweatpants. (no one looks at us anymore anyway).

Does she know she may never eat a hot meal again?, or that she will be reduced to running to the store with puke on her collar and not really care. Does she realize how precious each dark moment is that she can sleep? does she know how many mornings she will open her eyes to see 2 staring right back at her only inches away.

Does she know that her view of a clean house will change?  If things are out of sight you can declare it clean! Does she know that she will be learning a sign language only her and her husband will know and it will be accompanied by hand gestures, head jerks and the ever popular finger to the mouth (shhhhh )a flash of the phone may mean I have to go hide in the closet to make this call.

Does she know that the first sniffles will frighten her?, that she will need ALOT of band aids and there does NOT have to be blood to need one? Does she know she can laugh and cry at the same thing? 

Does she know that she will change so many poopy diapers that the odor somehow becomes embedded in your noise hairs?  Does she know she won't even mind it?

Does she know that her masters degree won't really matter, she is already the best teacher her little girl can have.This sorority girl will pick up crumbled crayons from the floor, wipe yogurt from her hair, wipe spit up off her top and call it clean, she will become a nurse, a teacher, a counselor ( oh she already is), a cheerleader.

Does she know how enriched her life will be? How her family dynamics will change, how crazy, exciting, fulfilling her life is going to be when she hears that first cry?

Has she thought about the first time she hears her little girl call her mommy and how each time she hears it, a smile tugs at her heart?

Does she know that even though her world is about to change- it is a world that will be brighter,more beautiful.

It is a world in which her arms will always have something to hold.

I love you Ashley and your world IS about to change, it is about to get better!