Thursday, August 23, 2012

Things I LOVE, HATE,SMILE and CRY about

Because I had a major surgical procedure 2 weeks ago today I have had a tremendous amount of time to do a tremendous amount of nothing. 

I am notorious for having to always be busy doing something. I somehow identify my worth with how much I can get done.  I have realized though in the past two weeks that nothing happens when some of these things are not done. 

I have learned a few things about myself, things I love, things I hate, things that make me smile and things that make me cry.

I HATE being in the hospital away from my family, I LOVE that the Lord see's me through ALL the trials.

I HATE slow recovery, I Loved being reminded that it is in GODS timing and not mine therefore HE taught me to relax and enjoy quiet, still time

I HATE pain, I LOVE pain pills! (Just sayin)

I HATE relying on others I LOVE that I have others to rely on.

I HATE that every time I started to take a nap I would get a phone call, I LOVE  that I have family and friends who call me and keep me from taking a nap.


 I have learned that there is really nothing about the TLC channel that is tender, loving or caring. I mean really "Here comes Honey Boo Boo" ! A mouthy disrespectful, child that I would not label as Honey Boo Boo.

I Smiled when I woke from surgery and saw my husband and daughter in law, I Cried when It was so late and they had to leave.
 
I have smiled when my husband came into my hospital room and said "lets take a walk," while we figured out how we were going to take all the equipment I was hooked to.  I Cried when I realized I was hooked to all that equipment.

I Smiled every day when I get many cards from friends and when the flowers being delivered made my room look like I was being buried (actually I laughed) and then I got not 1 but 2 sweet edible arrangements with fresh fruit, including chocolate covered bananas and chocolate covered Pineapples.

I have smiled as my boys anxiously waited for the mystery meal that would be delivered by wonderful friends from church and I cried because I had no desire to eat any of it.

I have watched countless hours of "a baby's story", Say yes to the dress, I found the gown, four weddings, I Love Lucy, Leave it to Beaver, The Dick VanDyke show, Andy Griffith and I have smiled that I am watching shows I do not normally watch, though I have ALWAYS loved Beaver, I love Lucy and Andy Griffith.

I Smile when I put in a good movie and lie on my bed and do nothing but watch it.  I have learned to Love being ok with this.


I can almost say I LOVE not having to go to work and I can definitely say I HATE that I am not getting paid!

Well it is almost time for me to put in my beloved Christy dvd as I am watching the whole series and I am LOVING it!

2 comments:

Pamela said...

Keep on loving and hating,sister,until you are healed,then do it some more if you need to,or if you just want to!! Love you

Joan said...

I posted before, but we need all the above that you spoke above. It's called the road of life and learningabout not just ourselves but others. Love ya


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