NOT A RESOLUTION BUT A REVELATION.

Finding my way back to a love of mine- Writing.

Goodbye 2016, I say that with excitement.  This is a year that I am pleased is behind me.  I don’t generally like to rush life but moving forward is the right thing to do.  You have left me bruised and at times a bit beaten but you didn’t win.  If I had let you win I would not have been able to see the good that 2016 gave me.  The God Sightings, the life changing aha moments, the beautiful new grandson.  No, 2016 I leave you on the ground after a good butt kicking   gentle reminder of who is in control.

So. I am moving forward with anticipation of a wonderful new year.  A year older, a whole lot wiser and just a little bit excited to write this chapter.  How though do you write a chapter about something that has not happened?  It is easy to put our memories down into words because they have already occurred.  But putting down our future is impossible.  How do I know this?  If I wrote my own life story to date, it would have gone a little different than reality.  Yes I have made choices, decisions, and taken paths that were led by me but not all of those paths were paved with beauty. 

Looking forward to a new year , I long ago have thrown resolutions to the wind because they are just additional opportunities to disappoint ourselves when we fail.  We do or at least I do try to see how your year will unfold.  Some things we are in control of others we are not. 

This year I will not look back on my failures, my heartaches, my disappointments I will move forward with joy, Hope, and a renewed spirit.  I don’t know what will come my way in 2017 but I am ready to catch it and this is why.

• 2016 was not a stellar year for me and when my world was falling apart I learned that I have many good friends who carried me when I couldn’t walk alone.  Who picked me up when I wanted to fall.  Friends who made decisions for me, when I could not.  Friends who looked out for my best interest and friends who told me things I may not have even wanted to hear.
• I have Faith that carries me when I don’t want to be held.  A Lord who loves me when I am unlovable.  He guides my path even when I start going the wrong way.  He will never forsake me or leave me.  There is nothing I can do to make him turn away from me.  I am already good enough. 
• I am at my best when I am “Simply me”
• I have been Blessed with a beautiful family.  That is enough to know each day I have with them is a gift.

I am a realist so I am not at all anticipating that 2017 will be filled with rainbows and Unicorns, however I do feel I may be better equipped to wrestle and win whatever is thrown at me.  I know that with each disappointment and failure we typically get beaten when we are in the midst of it.  How much more could be learned from those life lessons if we embraced it, kicked it to the curb and let it go.  Harboring no residual feelings that can burden us.

Letting go in the middle of a crisis is hard but letting go for good is essential.